God will provide.

God will provide.

God will provide.

These past few weeks i have been praying for a big opportunity to help someone. I knew what i was getting myself into, because if you pray for things like opportunities, or faith, or for God to break you down, you better be ready for it. It’s going to be crazy, guaranteed. 

Anyway, today i got it. I don’t want to go into detail, because the Bible says not to boast about good works, so i’ll just say that it involves groceries and homeless people, and putting faith in God to handle my money, instead of putting faith in me to handle my money. 

I prayed for an opportunity for God to use me to provide for someone, and i got that. 

And now i am freaking out about how i am going to get groceries. Seriously?!? I just saw God provide for Kenny (the homeless man i met) and his family. Seriously? He just had a stroke. He’s homeless. But, God is providing for him. You know how usually when people have strokes they can become partially paralyzed? Not Kenny. God provided. Who was worrying about groceries? Hint: not Kenny. I was worrying about groceries. I am still worrying about groceries.

It’s so hard to believe that God will provide for me personally, and so easy to trust that He will provide for others. I always pray for God to provide for others, but i never pray that He would provide for me. I don’t know why i do that. The Bible doesn’t say “God will provide for everyone except for Kara”. 

But it does say this:

“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

(Matthew 6:25-34 ESV)

Why are we so bad at remembering that? People only talk about that passage, like… i don’t know, ALL THE TIME. There’s probably a reason. 

I’m not writing this to bring attention to me or to say “look how awesome and giving i am”, and if you think i am, then i sincerely apologise. The only reason i can do this is because of God working through me. We cannot do anything good apart from God, so everything good is attributed to Him. The only reason i wrote this is to show that God is our provider. And to remind me how that includes me, too. 

Philippians 4:19